I spent much of the
last year moving from personal crisis to personal crisis, then I got
settled in to my new life and neglected a lot of the things I wanted
to do this year. I didn't work out, I didn't lose weight or any of
the “normal” things I'd wanted to do. I started a bunch of
projects that I didn't finish, not really new for me, but it seemed
worse this year than before. I wasted a lot of time screwing around
on the internet when I could've been working on something
constructive or reading or literally anything else. I guess I lost a
lot of focus when my wife was diagnosed with cancer last December,
she seems to be doing fine by the way, and I couldn't even really
focus on the stuff I was using to keep myself busy so I wouldn't be
in constant fear for her life.
We moved. That kind
of screwed things up for me with regard to working on things for my
newly launched “Great Khan Games”, which is just really an excuse
for me to maybe make some coffee money off my hobby. I started
playing some D&D (and a couple of other RPGs and a couple of
board games, and a couple of different card games) and made a new
friend- which is about statistically impossible for a man my age.
I am facing the
possibility that I am suffering from some kind of weird DM burnout,
despite not actually playing that often. I am having trouble keeping
things going. I just called it earlier this month on our meandering
and somewhat poorly run (my fault) AD&D campaign, and started a
new AD&D OA campaign the last time we played (2 weeks ago this
coming Saturday- we had to cancel last week when my entire family got
sick), and I am sorry to say I am already losing interest in it. I've
no idea why. Just an overwhelming feeling of “Meh”.
Mike has GMed here a
couple of times and I had a great time. I still haven't tried gaming
online. Various anxieties are keeping me from it. I really should
play a game online, just to see what it's like, so I will attempt to
do it within the next month. I am pretty sure that I won't want to DM
online, because the amount of prep and the mastery of the VTT
software seem like too much of a bother.
I guess we've
reached the end of the review. Gaming wise, I have published 2
character classes (1 for AD&D/OSRIC and the other for
B/X-Labyrinth Lord or AD&D/OSRIC), crashed and burned an AD&D
game I was running, and started an AD&D OA game that I am hoping
I can re-inspire myself for before Saturday. The list of
shelved/abandoned projects is a lot longer, but sadder to me.
Aside from gaming I
am doing pretty well. I live in a nice, new place, it's big. My
wife's entire extended family is around and I mostly like them. Met
and befriended a local(ish) gamer. My oldest daughter got engaged,
and my youngest is a senior in high school. I wasn't disappointed by
the new Star Wars movie. I got a bunch of cool OSR stuff over the
course of the year (White Star, Yoon-Suin, A Red and Pleasant Land,
Vornheim [I only had the pdf before], Petty Gods, Castle Gargantua,
Silent Legions- just off the top of my head).
